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Valentine’s Day

Honestly, I feel like this is such a much needed topic to cover. Valentine’s Day is one of those pointless holidays that Hallmark created to sell cards, we all know it. Whatever, they need to make money. The thing I hate about it though, is the expectations. The same goes to EVERY Hallmark holiday, especially New Year’s. There’s this relatively non-important holiday, and with society’s expectations on that holiday, you feel pressured to adhere to some standard of activities on that particular day.

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(Now, my dad did send me some beautiful flowers for Valentine’s Day and I appreciated those SO MUCH. They actually kind of made my day, but that’s not the point of this rant.)

On New Year’s, if you’re not out celebrating with a lot of friends with the perfect date for a New Year’s Kiss, then you’re not doing it right. (Apparently.) So if you don’t have plans to do that, you either feel extreme anxiety in trying to make those plans, or you just feel down because you don’t have a way of doing that at all. I hate that! I hate the societal standard that you have to celebrate this particular holiday and if you don’t, you just feel bummed out. It’s not fair. It’s frustrating.

The same goes for Valentine’s Day. If you’re not out going to a fancy dinner with your significant other and if they don’t give you fancy gifts and if you don’t take cute pictures to post everywhere, then you’re not doing it right. That irritates me SO MUCH. Valentine’s Day just makes you feel crappy if you’re not doing any of those things, and it’s just not fair.

These holidays, along with SO MANY MORE, are primarily celebrated so that products promoting them can be sold. They’re for cooperations to make money off of, and just because there’s nothing I can do about that does not mean I have to actively celebrate them in the way they’re “supposed” to be celebrated. I do what I want on those holidays and just because a random Wednesday happens to be some ridiculous holiday does not mean I’m going to spend a bunch of money on stuff no one needs and stress about plans that are not necessary. And if you’re someone who celebrates these holidays, cool! I celebrate them in their correct way sometimes, but other times I just don’t want that pressure. It’s not fair.

Yeah so I’m not sure if this blog even entirely makes sense but I needed to vent a little. I hope this isn’t too terribly pointless and that you got something out of this.

xx -A

Today

Well, today’s blog is probably going to be pretty short and not particularly exciting, but I shall blog it anyways. I’m in a pretty good mood. I spent today actively avoiding leaving my apartment–partly because it was 40º this morning and partly because I just wanted to stay in and watch TV and work on job stuff and catch up on emails and whatnot.

Last week, I had an in-person interview on Tuesday, and that same afternoon, I went through a phone screen interview. I was told by the woman interviewing me over the phone that I would hear from her on Monday morning (aka today) if I make it to the next stage of interviews: in-person interviews. I was pleased to receive a call from her this morning asking if I was available to come in for an in-person interview Tuesday morning. (Obviously, I said yes.) I also received an email from someone at a different company that I had applied to asking if I was available for a phone interview on Tuesday as well. (More good news!) So of course, I’m very excited about making ACTUAL progress in my ongoing job hunt tomorrow.

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My goal was to spend the whole day without leaving at all, but I was notified by my complex of a shipment arriving for me at the office. (I wasn’t expecting anything, though.) Much to my surprise (and delight!), my new coffee table I had ordered on Amazon arrived two days early! Despite the fact that I had to haul it from the office to my apartment because it wasn’t delivered to my door like my furniture usually is, I was very excited! After opening it all up, I realized it would be slightly more complicated to put together than I anticipated, but after a few minutes I figured it out and got to work. Check it out! I love it!

So yeah, today’s blog is primarily about me wanting to talk about the things that are going well for me today. That may or may not be interesting for people, but I don’t know, sometimes it’s nice to just actually take a step back and think about how good I’ve got it. I live a pretty good life, and sure I’m allowed to have my bad days, but ultimately I live a good life. I have people who care about me, I have opportunities (hopefully) coming my way, and I live in a cute apartment and have a cute and cuddly kitty. It’s not a bad life to live.

xx – A

Girl’s Weekend

I’m sure I’m not the only one who has those weeks where NOTHING seems to go right, right? That’s how this past week was for me. It was rough, and I was miserable for them majority of it. I just felt like I was getting bad news after bad news and even if something good happened, it felt like the bad stuff overshadowed it.

On Friday, my mom drove up to San Antonio (which gave me some much needed mother-daughter time). Her primary reason for going up was to visit my grandparents (her dad and step-mom) since my grandpa’s health isn’t the greatest right now. I went with her to visit them and we had a really nice time talking and hanging out for a few hours. I forgot about the week’s sadness, but it got worse again on Friday evening when I realized the weekend had arrived and I basically had no plans. My mom had only gone up to SA for the day, so once she left it hit me–all of my friends in town (San Antonio) were busy or going out of town for the weekend. I would basically be spending the weekend alone, and that was not something I could handle emotionally.

I was talking to one of my best friends who lives in Dallas all day on Friday and I was talking about how down I felt. She suggested going up to visit her for the weekend for a girl’s weekend. So I decided to just do it. I wasn’t able to leave San Antonio until 9:30 p.m., so I didn’t arrive in Dallas until around 1:30 a.m. That didn’t matter though. My best friend and I got to hang out and catch up for a few hours and so far, the rest of the weekend has been exactly what I needed. I talked through some of the things I was frustrated about with her and it calmed me down a lot. She talked down my anxiety levels and convinced me to not worry and stress so much. I needed someone to ground me and she did it perfectly. We spent the weekend having fun and just catching up, since I hadn’t been up to visit in about a year.

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We went out on Saturday (because that’s what 22-year-olds do) and we had an absolute BLAST. I hadn’t had that much fun going out in a long time (despite the fact that we went home early). Both of us looked at each other around midnight and we realized we were ready to go home, so we got pizza, and went back to her apartment to watch some tv. We were in bed by 2 a.m., and if that’s not actual life goals, then I don’t know what is. (I love to have fun, but I really love to sleep). Since we were spending quality time together and were having so much fun, I took almost zero pictures from that night, but here’s a little shot from that night before we left her apartment.

Now that it’s Sunday, and the stresses from this past week are behind me now, I feel so much better about everything. I’m still stressing about not having a job yet, but I’m doing all I can to make that happen. This “Girl’s Weekend” has reminded me that I need to just step back from all the things that are driving me crazy every once in a while and just enjoy the little things, like quality time with a life-long friend. It’s amazing how therapeudic getting away from everything that’s stressing you out for a bit can be.

I had actually just sat down to job hunt some more, when my best friend suggested blogging about this weekend. I wasn’t sure what to write, but I figured it’d come to me as I wrote. (Spoiler alert: it totally did.) So yeah, friendly reminder to anyone who happens to read this: don’t underestimate the power of good company and a good time to help you get over all the stuff that’s driving you crazy and bringing you down.

xx -A

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